Mar/Apr 2019 • Vol. XLI No. 2 Fiction |

For Somebody So Scared

[D]o you understand? For I have told you plainly how it is.  — D. H. Lawrence “Say no to me,” she said, and I hesitated but did it. She seemed to get off under me. “No,” I said again. “I dare you,” she said, “I fucking dare you.” “No,” I said, enjoying myself this time. “No, no, no.” Afterward she explained that she’s learned that, if she asks for her rejection, it doesn’t hurt nearly as much. “Damn,” I said, “you are breaking my heart,” and she turned her face into the pillowcase and laughed at me. “At first when you say you’re in heartbreak, you think you’re referring to pain,” she said. “After a few years of it you learn it’s actually about function. Your heart breaks the way a toaster breaks. It just doesn’t work anymore.” She thought awhile. The sun stroked a long finger down her cheek between two slats in the blinds. “You can press all the buttons, but ain’t nobody getting any warmer.” • • This wo

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Courtney Sender’s fiction appears in Glimmer Train, Tin House online, Esquire, American Short Fiction, Crazyhorse, and Michigan Quarterly Review. A MacDowell Colony Fellow, she holds an MFA from the Johns Hopkins Writing Seminars and a BA in English from Yale. She is currently working on a novel.

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