Jan/Feb 2019 • Vol. XLI No. 1 January 2, 2019 |

An Excerpt from “Experts on Pain”

Read a micro-conversation with the author here. When I walked in and found my husband dead on the floor, the first thing I wanted to do was to kick the crap out of him. I didn’t. I called 911 and held him in my arms until the paramedics came. I whispered into his ear that I loved him, buried my face into his chest, and inhaled his smell—which was still there—thick and rousing. I stroked his cheeks, his forehead, his hair. His hands were cool and soft. I brought one palm up and held it to my face, cupped it against my cheek. When I heard the ambulance approaching, I shook his shoulders and yelled his name. “Wake up,” I wheezed, my breath fast and shallow—we were running out of time. I shook him so forcefully that his chin whipped backward and his teeth clicked together. Then something came over me. I thrust my palms into his chest, pummeled my fists into the soft expanse of his belly. “I hate you,” I cried out loud. When they carried him out, that’s when I beca

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Hanna Halperin Goldstein
Hanna Halperin Goldstein’s stories have appeared in New Ohio Review, Joyland, and Adirondack Review. She earned her MFA in fiction from the University of Wisconsin–Madison and is currently living on Martha’s Vineyard. She is at work on her first novel.

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