Sept/Oct 2018 KR OnlinePoetry |

Caballitos Crash Headfirst into the Wall

Translated from Spanish by Will Stockton

and we’re off again on this merry-go-round
of horses flying on wounds of silent bandaged kisses
to old insults or brilliant safety flares that carry me
from this room while you turn to the TV and
bawl with laughter while the host shows his
smiling teeth when instead he ought to gut us with
his perfect aphorisms with his pants down and recite commercials
for products that promise miraculous sex again you
unbuttoning my shirt and you climb atop your horse are are caballito
that slams us right into the wall that you remember but
I don’t remember how to reach the soles
of your feet spread open in my hands and your impulse to push
the afternoon until it’s over and I must go or the program ends with
an enormous applause from some fraction of the audience reined in
from an ecstasy like slipping me out of my shirt because I want to fuck
myself in your are are acelera acelera to fly
like a flock of partial applause for we are not going to
reach this ecstasy again but
momentarily our silence in this room more vibrant
than being alone in front of the Internet looking for a piece of meat or
an agujerito with a telenovela name like Pedro
Francisco Javier Alonso Fernando Santiago Gómez de Garza
and Garza shimmying like a scared fawn out of his clothes or
to tell us with his doe eyes I feel something special for you I don’t have a place I want
to move in with you or if not
to start again as friends and your constant ay ey uy ay y
your dry pedestrian jokes so without you without sex without your come here
here I want you to be my meat but we do not know how
to get back to the orange spread of my sofa or
your bed we barely cross the doorway where right now we plant
saplings of silence side by side with screams
from the contestants who want dream
to win a trip to the beach or a car or a fridge or
a toaster or whatever it is so that they do not have to go back
home empty-handed.

Sergio Loo
Sergio Loo (1982–2014), from Mexico City, was a prolific queer poet and writer before his early death from cancer at age thirty-one. His books include Claveles automáticos (2006), Sus brazos labios en mi boca rodando (2007), and Operación al cuerpo enfermo (2015).

Will Stockton is associate professor of English at Clemson University. His books include Members of His Body: Shakespeare, Paul and a Theology of Nonmonogamy (Fordham University Press, 2017) and the forthcoming Jesus Freak (Bloomsbury, 2018). His poems have appeared in journals including Bloom, Fourth River, and PANK.
Sergio Loo
Sergio Loo (1982–2014), from Mexico City, was a prolific queer poet and writer before his early death from cancer at age thirty-one. His books include Claveles automáticos (2006), Sus brazos labios en mi boca rodando (2007), and Operación al cuerpo enfermo (2015).

Will Stockton is associate professor of English at Clemson University. His books include Members of His Body: Shakespeare, Paul and a Theology of Nonmonogamy (Fordham University Press, 2017) and the forthcoming Jesus Freak (Bloomsbury, 2018). His poems have appeared in journals including Bloom, Fourth River, and PANK.